Tonight I sit in my office at home, unable to sleep. Not because I have had too much coffee, or from heartburn keeping me awake. I’m awake because I’m to excited to sleep. In a few hours my small family of 3 will become 4.
I’m amazed that even though we’re adding to our family, love multiplies. I do not have to love Shane less to give love to Shiloh.
I wasn’t blogging when my first little man was born, but over the years I have written many letters to my first son Shane. He is such a blessing to me. I promise to get back to church and production related stuff soon, but I’m overjoyed now and have to share.
I want you to know how much I love you. Though we haven’t met in person, I have dreamed about you, prayed for you, and even talked to you. You don’t respond with words, but as I would place my hand on your mommy’s tummy you would kick and roll with excitement. That gives me such joy, I can’t wrap my head around the fact you’re alive in there. In a few hours, I will hold you in my arms and look at the miracle that you are. I have wondered what your personality will be like. Will you have your mother’s ability to organize or my sense of humor, will you have my eyes or her nose? So many questions that never have to be answered because they have no bearing on my feelings for you. I will mess up buddy, please forgive me. I don’t do it on purpose, but what I will do is everything I can to be a dad you’re proud of. I want to be your hero, and your friend. Shiloh, you’re about to change my world and I welcome it! I love you buddy.